Thursday, March 31, 2011

...Two People Fell In Love...

I don't know how to start our story without first telling you about us.

 New Years Eve,  December 31st, 2006, the day that started it all. A church we fellowship with in our area was having a "watch night" service, I was invited by my pastor and his family to attend with them.(his daughters were close friends of mine) I knew little of what to expect because of never being in a service like this before. The first part of the service was much like any service only with lots of special singing and rejoicing, it was wonderful. We then had a break for refreshments and that is when my life changed forever. In the back of the church there were several rooms with tables set up with room for eating and fellowship, I heard laughter from down the hall and curiosity got the best of me. I walked down the hall into a small room and laughter exploded from it, that is when I saw him...never before had someone captured my attention quite like this young man. I wanted to know more, I HAD TO KNOW MORE!! I quickly began asking friends who he was and learned all I could about him in the coming months. I had finished the year and started a new one with this young man on my mind and I knew that this was something special. I learned that his name was Justin, he was 18 years old, that he was single(YES!), he had a job and a car, he played the drums and shared the same love for Christ that I did!(and do)  Now before you get the idea that he was as goo~goo about me as I was him let me stop that thought! In all honesty after that night I did everything I could to get his attention! I sent messages on a social networking site, I begged friends to mention me, I visited his church, everything short of a neon sign! Then one night in march while our churches were together for a youth rally I told myself now or never, tonight had to be the night. A friend had talked to him and told him that he should look for me and say hello. Minutes before service was to begin, as everyone was finding a seat and all the commotion was quieting down, he walks down the aisle leans over in front of me and says something along the lines of  "You've been trying to get my attention and now you have it, we'll talk later" and turns and walks away right as service begins. I felt like all eyes were on me and my face was the color of the freshest ripest tomato you could find. Could he really be the one, the answer to all my prayers...time would only tell. That night I felt as if I were on top of the world, I got home to find that I did have a reply message from him and that he wanted to get to know me better as well. We then spent the greater part of the night talking on the phone, I had never laughed so much in my life, and still I don't know if it was out of being nervous or because he was just that funny! We planned for a date and tried to seek God in the meantime for his will. The morning of our date was unreal, I have never changed clothes so many times, never was I found without anything to say but that morning in the quiet of the house I was in a place I had never found myself before...was this love? Our breakfast date came and went with much enjoyment, from his pork chops, eggs, biscuits and gravy to me blowing bubbles in my cup of milk like my gramma had taught me years ago. Neither of us knew what was to come but we did know that morning was blissful. Very shortly after this I broke things off, I was so afraid of giving myself fully away, fear of being hurt as before.(I will share one day) Needless to say God worked things out, Justin was able to forgive I was able to trust and our relationship grew and flourished because we left God right where He belonged in the center. In late summer of 2008 my brother grew extremely ill and things seemed so overwhelming, Justin was there, he helped me and gave me a reason to go on when I was hurting so bad. On October 5 in the midst of the storm that raged around me I found a calm, a peace, a true happiness and joy. That day had been one of the worst I had experienced, I was sad and in all honesty I wouldn't have wanted to be around me! Justin still with love in his heart decided to spend the evening with me, a local festival was in town and usually I love that sort of thing, people everywhere which means lots of talking and lots of people watching! ( just what I love) But that night was different, I wasn't myself, I wanted to be alone and be sad and that just be okay. Justin took me to that festival and tried all he could to make me happy, he urged me to loosen up and to have a good time and even tried to get me to the top of the ferris wheel, NO THANKS! After this evening of fun he decided to drive 30 minutes out of the way to drop another couple off before taking me home, I did my best to pretest but it was to no avail, I wasn't winning this one. Then after we were alone Justin took me to "our special spot" near the riverfront, I told him how sorry I was for not being fun and that he should have gone without me and mid appology I was stopped...the look in his eyes was so sincere, so unforgetable and the words that followed even moreso. He looked at me with the most loving look and said something along the lines of "I love you and even if you were like this the rest of your life I still want to spend it with you." I was in shock as he spoke these and many more words and slid the most perfect, most beautiful ring on my finger. "Will you marry me?" I was speachless, which was a rarity that was happening more and more and sat mezmorized for minutes before answering "of course!" We soon set a wedding date and wasting no time we were married on April 26th, 2008.

Maybe all those words seem too many, but to me that is the short story! I met the love of my life, I have something that so many desire and few have found. My secret? I let the Lord guide me, I didnt do the looking, the choosing, He did. I prayed for my husband long before I even knew who He would be, God knew though. Almost 3 years later we are still so much in love and growing everyday, because when God does something He does it right.

Monday, March 28, 2011

First post... :]

As my blogs title implies I am battling infertility but I am filled with hope knowing God's grace always shines through the dark clouds. I will share my story, my struggles and my faith through this blog. My prayer is that through my words, my life, I can help someone else to know that wonderful hope that God gives us. I whole heartedly believe that what the word of God says in Romans 8:28, "...all things work together for good...". Sometimes in this life we face circumstances we fill we can't get through but I am so glad that I have found a friend in Christ , "Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you"( 1 Peter 5:7) I have found God to be my strength when I have none and my comfort when I feel I am in the deepest pit of despair. Where would I be, God only knows. I am so looking forward to what God has in store and am so glad that now I can share it with you too!